Herm.. Noticed that I haven't been blogging for quite some time (and also shun bian waiting for my nail polish to dry). So here are the updates:
Health-related
As some of you might have known, I was diagnosed with an ovarian cyst sometime back. I just went for a 2nd checkup and scan last Tuesday (30 September 2008). Result is that I will need a keyhole operation, which is going to be on the coming Thursday, 9 October 2008. The reason being that the operation needs to be done between my periods.
My cyst did not shrink, instead, it grew 7mm over a period of 3 months. Hence, my gynae told me that I could be suffering from Endometriosis. This condition is strongly related to infertility and has a high chance of reoccurance. Hence, if my cyst is really endometriotic (only will know after my gynae sends my cyst for test), I will be required to take medication for 6 months to fake menopause (meaning no periods), and then take hormone injections until I am married to prevent endometriosis from reoccuring. Why until I am married is because endometriosis is usually controlled after pregnancy due to the constant high levels of female hormones produced in pregnancy.
Had another attack of "left appendix pain". :( Note: Appendix is situated on the right, but my left is hurting simply because of the cyst. The cyst is also causing backache and "gastric pain" (pain in between S and Y), because it is situated near my big intestine, during my period. Generally when my period comes, I suffer whole bodyaches. Sometimes so bad that I can't sleep at night.
Because of my surgery, I am also forced to opt out of Bintan trip, which is supposed to be on 25th to 27th October (the golden long weekend). *sad but there is nothing I can do* Huishan comforted me in telling me that there will be other chances where I can go on holiday with them. I told her that I would love to go on holidays with them, but judging on my luck, I think maybe I might have other problems then. [Yes, I am pessimistic, but honestly speaking, I don't think anyone in my shoes will not be, and I am not just referring to cyst problem.]
Source: http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/diseases/facts/endometriosis.htm
Work-related
So far everything is fine -- my colleagues and bosses are friendly. But I still have a lot to learn.
I have finally reached a conclusion last night. There are a million and one things I can't control. Including how people feel and think, my health, and what's going to happen in the next second. But there is always one single thing I can control. I can control my working attitude though I can't control how my boss thinks about me. (Not that she don't like me; it is just a statement) Hence in a way, I can control my career.
Therefore, I've decided to be more career-orientated. I think that this is probably one of the few areas whereby effort can be equated to results. But then again, not all careers generate efforts into results. A good example would be my working as a recruitment agent in the past. For sales job I still think that luck plays a very important role. For my current job, I think and hope that my efforts will most probably pay off.
Showing posts with label Sianz. Show all posts
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Went to post-celebrate Jiexi's birthday today. Her actual birthday was on 20th Aug, which was Wednesday, but that poor girl only came back to Singapore from Batam at 11.30pm.
For the both of us, we can't help but agree that birthday is just another day; so we are contented with just having our friends remembering it even if it means without any form of celebration. Just a simple SMS will do. It is the sincerity that really matters. :)
Am glad that Jiexi liked the bag I got for her, so that she can bring her clothes into Batam. She has already bought 5 tops from Batam because she missed the last ferry. Poor girl. I so wish that everything will go well for her from now onwards. :)
I feel a bit emotional now. I just feel that I have no milestones to call my own. I am 25 yet I don't have a career. Jiexi disagrees though. She told me that I have gone through a lot more things which most people around my age need not go though. I agree with her on this point but I just can't help but feel useless at some point. Maybe it's just my hormones going haywire.
I think I should follow Jiexi's advice to take this period as a well-deserved break.
For the both of us, we can't help but agree that birthday is just another day; so we are contented with just having our friends remembering it even if it means without any form of celebration. Just a simple SMS will do. It is the sincerity that really matters. :)
Am glad that Jiexi liked the bag I got for her, so that she can bring her clothes into Batam. She has already bought 5 tops from Batam because she missed the last ferry. Poor girl. I so wish that everything will go well for her from now onwards. :)
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I feel a bit emotional now. I just feel that I have no milestones to call my own. I am 25 yet I don't have a career. Jiexi disagrees though. She told me that I have gone through a lot more things which most people around my age need not go though. I agree with her on this point but I just can't help but feel useless at some point. Maybe it's just my hormones going haywire.
I think I should follow Jiexi's advice to take this period as a well-deserved break.
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Sweet dao.. :)
Knowing that I am sianz, sweet Dave sent me a few songs via youtube to try to cheer me up.
Thank you Dave! :D
Josh Groban - Don't Give Up, You Are Loved
Des'ree - You Gotta Be
Lighthouse Family - High
Can especially feel with this song. Natasha Bedinfield - Pocket Full Of Sunshine
Thank you Dave! :D
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Sianz
Just came back from an interview. Feeling quite sianz now -- met another bad agent today; or rather, I just realised that this agent is bad. Seriously don't know if it is coz I am super sway. 
The interview was okay and everything. I appreciate the job offering lots of exposure and learning opportunities (even though the pay not very high). The only thing which I am slightly uncomfortable with is that I have this worry that the permanent staff might expect my working style to be similar to the girl I am going in to replace. She is from SMU and works on a permanent part-time basis, when she is on holiday she will return to the company to help out. If I am not wrong she is with the company for around 1-2 years already. So, my worry that they might do comparison is definitely not unfound. Moreover she might be return to the company if there are major projects. From my experience with GMP, I have already learnt that if the supervisors don't like you, that means they don't like you, no matter how hard you try. A bit sad, but that's the way it is.
Reverting back to the "agent story". I have 2 more interviews on Wednesday and I told the company and the agent that I will only be able to give an answer on Friday. The company said okay; the agent actually has the cheek to say "it is not fair for the company". Generally in a nutshell, he is trying to suggest that I should NOT go for the 2 other interviews because I "can't have the best of both worlds". Oh pleaseeeee, firstly the company has not offered me yet; secondly it is ethically wrong to discourage candidates from going to other interviews. Needless to say, I was pissed. I then told the agent that it is not fair for me if I don't go for the 2 other interviews.
Apparently I was seriously irritated, so I called Li'an to complain. Even after whining to her, I wasn't satisfied, so I told my mother over lunch. Somehow, she got the wrong idea that I went for interview that the agency this morning and started to scold me saying that I shouldn't go to agents if I am uncomfortable with them and that I need not tell the agent that I am going for other interviews blah blah blah. To be honest, I am already very stressed up with her job not being stable already, which really explains why I am so keen to look for a job. I just wanted to whine, is it so hard for her to listen only? Seriously sianz.
Was telling Li'an that I feel so sianz and tired that I got the impression that I feel that I am reaching the end of my life, even though I amonly 25.
Hopefully tomorrow's session at the gynae will bring me good news. Hope I don't need to take MC for too long. Best if I don't need surgery. Simply because seemingly the company I went to this morning is not keen to wait (not under agent's influence; point brought across to me by manager). Went out with Jasyln last Saturday, told her about my condition. She was a bit shocked that I am not worried about the cyst. Although there is nothing much to worry, come to think about it -- maybe I was too sianz to worry.
The interview was okay and everything. I appreciate the job offering lots of exposure and learning opportunities (even though the pay not very high). The only thing which I am slightly uncomfortable with is that I have this worry that the permanent staff might expect my working style to be similar to the girl I am going in to replace. She is from SMU and works on a permanent part-time basis, when she is on holiday she will return to the company to help out. If I am not wrong she is with the company for around 1-2 years already. So, my worry that they might do comparison is definitely not unfound. Moreover she might be return to the company if there are major projects. From my experience with GMP, I have already learnt that if the supervisors don't like you, that means they don't like you, no matter how hard you try. A bit sad, but that's the way it is.
Reverting back to the "agent story". I have 2 more interviews on Wednesday and I told the company and the agent that I will only be able to give an answer on Friday. The company said okay; the agent actually has the cheek to say "it is not fair for the company". Generally in a nutshell, he is trying to suggest that I should NOT go for the 2 other interviews because I "can't have the best of both worlds". Oh pleaseeeee, firstly the company has not offered me yet; secondly it is ethically wrong to discourage candidates from going to other interviews. Needless to say, I was pissed. I then told the agent that it is not fair for me if I don't go for the 2 other interviews.
Apparently I was seriously irritated, so I called Li'an to complain. Even after whining to her, I wasn't satisfied, so I told my mother over lunch. Somehow, she got the wrong idea that I went for interview that the agency this morning and started to scold me saying that I shouldn't go to agents if I am uncomfortable with them and that I need not tell the agent that I am going for other interviews blah blah blah. To be honest, I am already very stressed up with her job not being stable already, which really explains why I am so keen to look for a job. I just wanted to whine, is it so hard for her to listen only? Seriously sianz.
Was telling Li'an that I feel so sianz and tired that I got the impression that I feel that I am reaching the end of my life, even though I am
Hopefully tomorrow's session at the gynae will bring me good news. Hope I don't need to take MC for too long. Best if I don't need surgery. Simply because seemingly the company I went to this morning is not keen to wait (not under agent's influence; point brought across to me by manager). Went out with Jasyln last Saturday, told her about my condition. She was a bit shocked that I am not worried about the cyst. Although there is nothing much to worry, come to think about it -- maybe I was too sianz to worry.
Friday, May 30, 2008
Buang Exam and Complexion
Today I had my HRM paper. It sux. And I am serious. I am not exaggerating. If I failed, I am not surprised.
After the paper I felt totally dejected. What made my mood worse was my meeting of one of my polytechnic classmates. (I shall be explicitly implicit here)
We were classmates since polytechnic year one. We were frequent project mates; yet some how, I do not have deep impressions that we were project mates. During SIM year two (exempted for 1 year), we studied together; but this year, she is not my mug mate. Today I finally know why.
She treats me as a competitor, never mind.
She talks bad behind me, I let it go since I am not present.
I suspect she attempted to influence the people around her to dislike me. So be it, I am a believer of 清者自清. I did not do the same to her because I have integrity.
Her 口头禅 was,"Joycelyn 欺负我." and frequently victimise herself. I endure but attempted to correct her by confronting her.
She commented about my bad complexion EVERY TIME she sees me. (This happened for at least 3-5 times) I am hurt and angry but I tolerate still, until today.
Yes, I agree. I have adult acne. My complexion is CUI. But you don't have to remind me EVERY TIME you see me.
PLUS,
Unless you know how to make up, you can't comment someone's make up skills are bad.
Unless you know fashion, you can't say someone is a fashion disaster.
Unless you are a beauty queen, you can't say someone is ugly.
Unless you own flawless complexion, you can't say someone's complexion is cui.
After the paper today, I met poly classmate (PC) at the MRT station.
PC: Wah! Joycelyn you very stressed ar?
Me: *irritated* Number 1 - My complexion cui is none of your business. Number 2 - you don't have to remind me every time you see me.
PC: Why you so agitated?
Me: Your commenting about my bad complexion every time you see me makes it hard for me not to be work up.
PC: Orh. OK loh.
Actually I wanted to say something more evil. But I held my tongue because I have 口德. As the saying goes, with friends like her, I don't need enemies.
I seriously don't understand. She can be a nice person but I don't understand why is she "playing stunts". I don't understand why must she degrade others so as to escalate herself. Neither do I understand why must she victimise herself all the time.
PS: As I have mentioned. I am being explicitly implicit here. So I am sure many of you would be able to guess who PC is. And, if PC is reading this, I am not hiding anything. Yes, I am pissed off with you; and I have a reason to. If you have a problem, really appreciate if you will confront me, straight at my face.
I felt
After this episode, I was so upset about both my buang paper and my buang complexion that I cried. Shan, Dan and Jia comforted me. Yee even called me to check on me. Jiexi was angry via MSN with me. All said they empathised with me and felt angry with PC.
After the paper I felt totally dejected. What made my mood worse was my meeting of one of my polytechnic classmates. (I shall be explicitly implicit here)
We were classmates since polytechnic year one. We were frequent project mates; yet some how, I do not have deep impressions that we were project mates. During SIM year two (exempted for 1 year), we studied together; but this year, she is not my mug mate. Today I finally know why.
She treats me as a competitor, never mind.
She talks bad behind me, I let it go since I am not present.
I suspect she attempted to influence the people around her to dislike me. So be it, I am a believer of 清者自清. I did not do the same to her because I have integrity.
Her 口头禅 was,"Joycelyn 欺负我." and frequently victimise herself. I endure but attempted to correct her by confronting her.
She commented about my bad complexion EVERY TIME she sees me. (This happened for at least 3-5 times) I am hurt and angry but I tolerate still, until today.
Yes, I agree. I have adult acne. My complexion is CUI. But you don't have to remind me EVERY TIME you see me.
PLUS,
Unless you know how to make up, you can't comment someone's make up skills are bad.
Unless you know fashion, you can't say someone is a fashion disaster.
Unless you are a beauty queen, you can't say someone is ugly.
Unless you own flawless complexion, you can't say someone's complexion is cui.
After the paper today, I met poly classmate (PC) at the MRT station.
PC: Wah! Joycelyn you very stressed ar?
Me: *irritated* Number 1 - My complexion cui is none of your business. Number 2 - you don't have to remind me every time you see me.
PC: Why you so agitated?
Me: Your commenting about my bad complexion every time you see me makes it hard for me not to be work up.
PC: Orh. OK loh.
Actually I wanted to say something more evil. But I held my tongue because I have 口德. As the saying goes, with friends like her, I don't need enemies.
I seriously don't understand. She can be a nice person but I don't understand why is she "playing stunts". I don't understand why must she degrade others so as to escalate herself. Neither do I understand why must she victimise herself all the time.
PS: As I have mentioned. I am being explicitly implicit here. So I am sure many of you would be able to guess who PC is. And, if PC is reading this, I am not hiding anything. Yes, I am pissed off with you; and I have a reason to. If you have a problem, really appreciate if you will confront me, straight at my face.
I felt
After this episode, I was so upset about both my buang paper and my buang complexion that I cried. Shan, Dan and Jia comforted me. Yee even called me to check on me. Jiexi was angry via MSN with me. All said they empathised with me and felt angry with PC.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Stranded at Auntie's place
I am stranded at auntie's place. Mother is playing mahjong. I have nothing better to do. Sianz. :( I wanna go home.
I've brought my HRM readings. But I have a bit of an headache. Nevertheless, I shall try to finish the article. (Though it seems a bit impossible)
Since I have nothing better to do, I shall post about my mugging process.
Macro
Studied 3 topics out of 12.
Cannot do spotting coz there is a change in examination format.
Will gambatte again tomorrow. (Digress: YY coming airport to lunch with us tomorrow! YEAH!)
HRM
Spotted 7 topics.
Studied 4 topics before prelims but yet to recap. After which, studied 1 more topic. Balance of 2 topics.
Tough subject. From what's written in the examiner's report, it some how seems that the examiners are expecting students to read outside of what's quoted in the reference section.
Trying to do some readings now.
MSM
Did not study much. Too overwhelmed with things to study for Macro and HRM.
So far only know how to do Networking. And a bit of Markov, DEA and AHP.
Still got a lot more to cover.
In short, wish me luck.
I've brought my HRM readings. But I have a bit of an headache. Nevertheless, I shall try to finish the article. (Though it seems a bit impossible)
Since I have nothing better to do, I shall post about my mugging process.
Macro
Studied 3 topics out of 12.
Cannot do spotting coz there is a change in examination format.
Will gambatte again tomorrow. (Digress: YY coming airport to lunch with us tomorrow! YEAH!)
HRM
Spotted 7 topics.
Studied 4 topics before prelims but yet to recap. After which, studied 1 more topic. Balance of 2 topics.
Tough subject. From what's written in the examiner's report, it some how seems that the examiners are expecting students to read outside of what's quoted in the reference section.
Trying to do some readings now.
MSM
Did not study much. Too overwhelmed with things to study for Macro and HRM.
So far only know how to do Networking. And a bit of Markov, DEA and AHP.
Still got a lot more to cover.
In short, wish me luck.
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