Yippee~

My exams ended yesterday!!!!! MSM paper was ok. But I couldn't finish one of the questions. Wasted a lot of time doing my Section B questions (started on Section B first), even did part a of one and ended up canceling it off coz I totally don't know how to do part b. I should have read through the whole question before attempting first..

A lot of my friends are expecting me to jump after my paper. Instead, I was still very calm. I wasn't excited, but was definitely relieved. I was so tired yesterday that I KO-ed at around 12am till 11+am this morning. Slept at 4am at Sijia's place the night before.

Thank you very much Sijia for adopting me for the night before exams. Thank you Xiuling for waking me up the last morning when I couldn't wake up. Totally LOVE you all loh!!

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Went dinner with Doris today at Tonkichi. Very nice with free flow of shredded cabbage to go with their sauce. Yummy!

I told Doris that I was hungry because I only ate 1 muffin, 1 peach tart and 1 swiss roll the whole day. She told me my exams ended already, should eat decent food instead of examination rationing food. Haha~

Going Sentosa next Saturday with Twins!!! Wheeee~~~

Buang Exam and Complexion

Today I had my HRM paper. It sux. And I am serious. I am not exaggerating. If I failed, I am not surprised.

After the paper I felt totally dejected. What made my mood worse was my meeting of one of my polytechnic classmates. (I shall be explicitly implicit here)

We were classmates since polytechnic year one. We were frequent project mates; yet some how, I do not have deep impressions that we were project mates. During SIM year two (exempted for 1 year), we studied together; but this year, she is not my mug mate. Today I finally know why.

She treats me as a competitor, never mind.
She talks bad behind me, I let it go since I am not present.
I suspect she attempted to influence the people around her to dislike me. So be it, I am a believer of 清者自清. I did not do the same to her because I have integrity.
Her 口头禅 was,"Joycelyn 欺负我." and frequently victimise herself. I endure but attempted to correct her by confronting her.
She commented about my bad complexion EVERY TIME she sees me. (This happened for at least 3-5 times) I am hurt and angry but I tolerate still, until today.

Yes, I agree. I have adult acne. My complexion is CUI. But you don't have to remind me EVERY TIME you see me.

PLUS,
Unless you know how to make up, you can't comment someone's make up skills are bad.
Unless you know fashion, you can't say someone is a fashion disaster.
Unless you are a beauty queen, you can't say someone is ugly.
Unless you own flawless complexion, you can't say someone's complexion is cui.

After the paper today, I met poly classmate (PC) at the MRT station.
PC: Wah! Joycelyn you very stressed ar?
Me: *irritated* Number 1 - My complexion cui is none of your business. Number 2 - you don't have to remind me every time you see me.
PC: Why you so agitated?
Me: Your commenting about my bad complexion every time you see me makes it hard for me not to be work up.
PC: Orh. OK loh.

Actually I wanted to say something more evil. But I held my tongue because I have 口德. As the saying goes, with friends like her, I don't need enemies.

I seriously don't understand. She can be a nice person but I don't understand why is she "playing stunts". I don't understand why must she degrade others so as to escalate herself. Neither do I understand why must she victimise herself all the time.

PS: As I have mentioned. I am being explicitly implicit here. So I am sure many of you would be able to guess who PC is. And, if PC is reading this, I am not hiding anything. Yes, I am pissed off with you; and I have a reason to. If you have a problem, really appreciate if you will confront me, straight at my face.

I felt
After this episode, I was so upset about both my buang paper and my buang complexion that I cried. Shan, Dan and Jia comforted me. Yee even called me to check on me. Jiexi was angry via MSN with me. All said they empathised with me and felt angry with PC.

Updates for ICP + Visited Master Kong

I just realised yesterday that I mixed up the points for "reasons why firms engage in FDI" with "reasons for the increasing in FDI (Maddison)".

Note: they may sound similar, but the points are really quite different.

After the paper I was aiming for a 40 only. But now, I just hope that I wouldn't fail.

Background: I am really worried because out of all the assignments and tests that I have done, I have not passed any one of them. And I really did put in effort for all of them. Even for prelims, I have only marginally passed (38 marks) one of the questions which I had attempted. My approach to the questions were wrong. But I really did try to correct my mistakes. Hope that this time, I can actually scrap through.

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I visited Master Kong today. I brought my Entry Proof there, as per recommended by Daniel. But I didn't take it out. Coz erm, I think nobody does that there, and what if later it flew off!!?!?!? Anyway, I had the entry proof in my trusty zip-up pouch. So I pretended I have no hands, so put on the alter.

I then told Master Kong my address and then told him my examination dates. Please bless me.

ICP over!!! :D

I HAVE COMPLETED MY ICP PAPER TODAY~!!!!!

I am feeling damn high since I finished the paper, as I have really put in quite a bit of effort for ICP. I have at least spent the last 10 days studying ICP and almost nothing else. (There was one day which I spent on MSM)

Since it was my first paper, I was SERIOUSLY feeling the jitters this morning. Basically I felt like a coconut - all empty except water. I was taking deep breaths and almost feel like giving up and not turn up for the paper. I was so scared that I thought I was going to hyperventilate soon. (Huishan and Sijia can vouch for me -- HS and I spent the night at Jia's) I was so nervous that I called Li'an (is 丽安 not 莲) to chat for a while.

HS: It is normal to feel nervous for first paper. Yesterday I could feel my legs turning jelly. (LOL if under normal no-exams condition)
Me: HUH?! I scared later my hands turn jelly leh! Legs turn jelly ok, coz you can sit. My hands jelly then goner liao!
HS: Wun lah!

HS, SJ, Twins: You already have the knowledge inside you. Later you will be able to remember all already!
Twins: 必胜! Prayed for you already! (I asked Twins to pray for me)
Daniel: I'll ask him (Master Kong) to bless you first. :) (Dan and Jia going to visit Master Kong today)
XL, Karen and everybody: Good luck!
Yee was real sweet to sms me, asking how was my paper.

Mummy: (called me yesterday) That day you said you wanna go pray to Confucius, did you go?
Me: No, going this weekend.
Mummy: Then previously you got go Bugis there pray?
Me: Got.
Mummy: Ok. (LOL)

She had a bad fell last night and went to the hospital to do a CT scan, but she didn’t want me to know, fearing that it might affect my examination performance. Poor thing. But thank god she is ok now.

REALLY SWEET DAO~~~

Anyway, the verdict is:

I CAN DO MY PAPER! YEAH!!!!!!!!! We are supposed to do 4 questions out of 10. Surprisingly, after reading the questions, I realised I could attempt 6 questions! Meaning I can choose!!!!!! I was really high and was furiously writing. Maybe it is because I leave a line and because I spent 4 full pages doing my framework, I used a total of 3 booklets (1 thick and 2 thin). Boy! I am damn proud of myself!!! All my hard work seems to have paid off (can only confirm when I get my results). I even had an urge to email Geb Geb to let him know I can attempt 6 questions. Ha~

Time for bed! *going off to bed happily*