Buang Exam and Complexion

Today I had my HRM paper. It sux. And I am serious. I am not exaggerating. If I failed, I am not surprised.

After the paper I felt totally dejected. What made my mood worse was my meeting of one of my polytechnic classmates. (I shall be explicitly implicit here)

We were classmates since polytechnic year one. We were frequent project mates; yet some how, I do not have deep impressions that we were project mates. During SIM year two (exempted for 1 year), we studied together; but this year, she is not my mug mate. Today I finally know why.

She treats me as a competitor, never mind.
She talks bad behind me, I let it go since I am not present.
I suspect she attempted to influence the people around her to dislike me. So be it, I am a believer of 清者自清. I did not do the same to her because I have integrity.
Her 口头禅 was,"Joycelyn 欺负我." and frequently victimise herself. I endure but attempted to correct her by confronting her.
She commented about my bad complexion EVERY TIME she sees me. (This happened for at least 3-5 times) I am hurt and angry but I tolerate still, until today.

Yes, I agree. I have adult acne. My complexion is CUI. But you don't have to remind me EVERY TIME you see me.

PLUS,
Unless you know how to make up, you can't comment someone's make up skills are bad.
Unless you know fashion, you can't say someone is a fashion disaster.
Unless you are a beauty queen, you can't say someone is ugly.
Unless you own flawless complexion, you can't say someone's complexion is cui.

After the paper today, I met poly classmate (PC) at the MRT station.
PC: Wah! Joycelyn you very stressed ar?
Me: *irritated* Number 1 - My complexion cui is none of your business. Number 2 - you don't have to remind me every time you see me.
PC: Why you so agitated?
Me: Your commenting about my bad complexion every time you see me makes it hard for me not to be work up.
PC: Orh. OK loh.

Actually I wanted to say something more evil. But I held my tongue because I have 口德. As the saying goes, with friends like her, I don't need enemies.

I seriously don't understand. She can be a nice person but I don't understand why is she "playing stunts". I don't understand why must she degrade others so as to escalate herself. Neither do I understand why must she victimise herself all the time.

PS: As I have mentioned. I am being explicitly implicit here. So I am sure many of you would be able to guess who PC is. And, if PC is reading this, I am not hiding anything. Yes, I am pissed off with you; and I have a reason to. If you have a problem, really appreciate if you will confront me, straight at my face.

I felt
After this episode, I was so upset about both my buang paper and my buang complexion that I cried. Shan, Dan and Jia comforted me. Yee even called me to check on me. Jiexi was angry via MSN with me. All said they empathised with me and felt angry with PC.

Stranded at Auntie's place

I am stranded at auntie's place. Mother is playing mahjong. I have nothing better to do. Sianz. :( I wanna go home.

I've brought my HRM readings. But I have a bit of an headache. Nevertheless, I shall try to finish the article. (Though it seems a bit impossible)

Since I have nothing better to do, I shall post about my mugging process.

Macro
Studied 3 topics out of 12.
Cannot do spotting coz there is a change in examination format.
Will gambatte again tomorrow. (Digress: YY coming airport to lunch with us tomorrow! YEAH!)

HRM
Spotted 7 topics.
Studied 4 topics before prelims but yet to recap. After which, studied 1 more topic. Balance of 2 topics.
Tough subject. From what's written in the examiner's report, it some how seems that the examiners are expecting students to read outside of what's quoted in the reference section.
Trying to do some readings now.

MSM
Did not study much. Too overwhelmed with things to study for Macro and HRM.
So far only know how to do Networking. And a bit of Markov, DEA and AHP.
Still got a lot more to cover.

In short, wish me luck.

Updates for ICP + Visited Master Kong

I just realised yesterday that I mixed up the points for "reasons why firms engage in FDI" with "reasons for the increasing in FDI (Maddison)".

Note: they may sound similar, but the points are really quite different.

After the paper I was aiming for a 40 only. But now, I just hope that I wouldn't fail.

Background: I am really worried because out of all the assignments and tests that I have done, I have not passed any one of them. And I really did put in effort for all of them. Even for prelims, I have only marginally passed (38 marks) one of the questions which I had attempted. My approach to the questions were wrong. But I really did try to correct my mistakes. Hope that this time, I can actually scrap through.

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I visited Master Kong today. I brought my Entry Proof there, as per recommended by Daniel. But I didn't take it out. Coz erm, I think nobody does that there, and what if later it flew off!!?!?!? Anyway, I had the entry proof in my trusty zip-up pouch. So I pretended I have no hands, so put on the alter.

I then told Master Kong my address and then told him my examination dates. Please bless me.

ICP over!!! :D

I HAVE COMPLETED MY ICP PAPER TODAY~!!!!!

I am feeling damn high since I finished the paper, as I have really put in quite a bit of effort for ICP. I have at least spent the last 10 days studying ICP and almost nothing else. (There was one day which I spent on MSM)

Since it was my first paper, I was SERIOUSLY feeling the jitters this morning. Basically I felt like a coconut - all empty except water. I was taking deep breaths and almost feel like giving up and not turn up for the paper. I was so scared that I thought I was going to hyperventilate soon. (Huishan and Sijia can vouch for me -- HS and I spent the night at Jia's) I was so nervous that I called Li'an (is 丽安 not 莲) to chat for a while.

HS: It is normal to feel nervous for first paper. Yesterday I could feel my legs turning jelly. (LOL if under normal no-exams condition)
Me: HUH?! I scared later my hands turn jelly leh! Legs turn jelly ok, coz you can sit. My hands jelly then goner liao!
HS: Wun lah!

HS, SJ, Twins: You already have the knowledge inside you. Later you will be able to remember all already!
Twins: 必胜! Prayed for you already! (I asked Twins to pray for me)
Daniel: I'll ask him (Master Kong) to bless you first. :) (Dan and Jia going to visit Master Kong today)
XL, Karen and everybody: Good luck!
Yee was real sweet to sms me, asking how was my paper.

Mummy: (called me yesterday) That day you said you wanna go pray to Confucius, did you go?
Me: No, going this weekend.
Mummy: Then previously you got go Bugis there pray?
Me: Got.
Mummy: Ok. (LOL)

She had a bad fell last night and went to the hospital to do a CT scan, but she didn’t want me to know, fearing that it might affect my examination performance. Poor thing. But thank god she is ok now.

REALLY SWEET DAO~~~

Anyway, the verdict is:

I CAN DO MY PAPER! YEAH!!!!!!!!! We are supposed to do 4 questions out of 10. Surprisingly, after reading the questions, I realised I could attempt 6 questions! Meaning I can choose!!!!!! I was really high and was furiously writing. Maybe it is because I leave a line and because I spent 4 full pages doing my framework, I used a total of 3 booklets (1 thick and 2 thin). Boy! I am damn proud of myself!!! All my hard work seems to have paid off (can only confirm when I get my results). I even had an urge to email Geb Geb to let him know I can attempt 6 questions. Ha~

Time for bed! *going off to bed happily*

I shouldn't have procrastinated

Sighz. I shouldn't have procrastinated. I should have gone to pray to Confucius long before my exams. I should have asked Mummy to bring me there today.

Now, I don't know how to go or how to pray. In the very first place, I don't even know where exactly is the temple. *Sad* Never mind, I shall go on the next coming Saturday or Sunday.

PS: Dear Mr Confucius, please continue to bless me for my ICP paper this coming Thursday ok. As you have mentioned, 唯女子与小人为难养也. I am 女人 so please forgive me! :(

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I am not productive for these 2 days. Really can't study at home.

Will give updates about Mother's Day if I am productive tomorrow. :)

Wuhu~!

I have decided to start a new blog! I was thinking previously if I should. But think about it again, what's the worst that could happen? At the most this is a dead blog OR I will just close this blog! No big deal!

Went to mug with Twins today. I wasn't really productive, was simply R E S T L E S S. So tomorrow I've got to pull up my socks (if I am wearing socks)

Speaking about mug, I simply to mug with my Ninis and Twins. Coz we motivate one another and keep one another company. *sweet*

Since this is my first entry, I shall beautify it with pictures, taken in library when studying with Twins.

At times, after studying for too long, we ok lah, is me I get vain.
(even though there are no tall eye-candy in sight)
Me: *after bunning up my hair* Hey, my hair messy a not har?
Doris: No lah. Still ok.
Me: Help me take pic of my hair leh.
Doris: Ok.
*takes hp and starts to snap at Doreen while my back was facing her*

Note: Doreen's finger wasn't in her mouth
Me: *after noticing reflection on glass* WEI~!
Doris: Okok.
*takes hp and start to snap at Doreen again while my back was facing her again*

Me: WEI~!
Doris: How you know I never take picture?!
Doreen: Coz she can see the reflection lah!
Doris: Orh........ Hahaha~~ Okok.
*finally took a pic of my bun*

Verdict -- My bun wasn't too messy

At times, after studying for too long, we get bored, so we take pictures.

We studying ok!


sometimes study until wanna puke.


but we are still happy to be studying together!


=)

At times, after studying for too long, we get crazy.

Monkey


Gold Digging. (Tat's my finger; but not in her nose)


hee hee..

Note: lesser pics of Doris coz that day I wasn't sitting with her.

At times, after studying for too long, we get hungry, so we went to get food.
As a result.......

we got "summon" Coz not allowed to reserve seats, can only be away for max 15min.

Though you may think that we are at the library to make merry, trust me, for the rest of the time, we are really serious in mugging. And we were quiet too. We interact via notes.


We encourage one another too.

pic of my drawing. Me (drawn on rough paper, with the 金三顺 sauna hat), Doris, Doreen
Their pics were drawn on their notes. Hahaa..

When I was really restless today, Doris drew this:

coz I've got curly hair! HAHA~

and wrote this:


Can't read? Nevermind, I type out.
Me: Sianz! I don't even have mood to read magazine! O_0
Doreen: 10 days left
Me: Boh la sa leh. HOW?! Quick stress me!!
Doris: Fail hor, classification drops!! Fail hor, must repeat a year!! First paper, v impt.. Coz if is smoothly, can do, the next few papers, you got more confidence!!
Me: It is working! Good! =)
Doris: First paper will boost your confidence level, therefore, jia you!
*sweet*

PS Ninis: we can try to take more pic! Then I can blog about our mugging session too!!! I love you!! Jiayou!! MUG MUG MUG~~